Pre-Mid Life Crisis

The big 30 is coming in less than a year and it's haunting me. The whole notion of mortality has been like a bullet popping in and out of my skull.

So much time left and all I can do is imagine myself on my death bed, prepping for those first steps into the hereafter. It's depressing.

I finished my first book; "The Ghost Who Rocks" a couple of weeks ago. I asked my proffessor for advise on getting it published but he hasn't gotten back to me.

Right now I'm not even worried about whether or not it's successful. Of course I'd like it to be, but I doubt it. My real hope is that it will open doors for me writing not only more books, but writing other kinds of stories in TV, Movies, or Comic Books. That would be sweet.

But part of my Mid-Life crisis is the idea that maybe I'll never be what I want to be. Maybe I don't have the talent. Perhaps I'll end up a history teacher like my folks like everybody keeps telling me I will.

Love my parents, love history, and nothing against the teachers (who aren't pretentious, uptight drones) but it's not what I want to be. I enjoy creating stories, hate writing them down, but love coming up with them.

I just can't help but wonder if I am doomed to follow in footsteps that I don't want to and it's driving me insane.

All is well

Back together with my girlfriend. Things are better than ever. We still fight, but that's okay. The good outweighs the bad.

Without a Trace

Broke up with my girlfriend this morning.

I shouldn't be upset, I should be relieved. A part of me knew this was coming, that in the end it could never work. We are far too different and our values are far too different for us to have lasted. We are "two ships in the night".

We fought regularly, drifted away from each other, and our goals were worlds apart.

But I miss her already.

I swear, women never look so beautiful as they do during the last goodbye.

Dear Mr & Mrs Genteel

I hate it when people think that children should refer to all adults as Mr or Mrs. It's utterly pretentious.

Being old doesn't make you wise, doesn't make you better, and it sure as rain doesn't make you a good person.

Flash fact, there is no age limit on stupidity and evil.

I can understand teachers needing to draw lines between themselves and 20-30 students but other than that it's just people on a ego trip.

Does anyone else see the huge contradiction in telling kids to respect their elders while at the same time telling them not to talk to strangers...most of whom are probably older? Most child predators, or all around bad guys, are adults. Wake up people.

What's more important; protecting children from the harsh realities of the world or being made to feel important with vapid titles?

Sorry to burst your egos, but it's not my fault you've chosen to rely on confucianism for self worth as opposed to building your own moral fiber.

Shut up Bush Apologist.

He had NOTHING to do with Bin Laden being killed.

1) Bush called Obama to congratulate him on Bin Laden's demise.

2) The idea that this was a operation 4 years in the making (conveniently right before Herr Bush left office) is idiotic. It doesn't take the military for 4 years to strike. They can invade a entire country is two weeks for crying out loud.

3) Bush wanted Bin Laden captured before he left office to try and salvage his legacy. Another failure on his part.

The man was a authoritarian idiot who screwed up everything. Stop trying to make excuses for him and focus on fixing your party before they another colossal moron in the oval office (*COUGH*Sarah Palin*COUGH*)

Yes, God is great, but shut up about it already.

At least on the internet. I swear to God that there is nothing more annoying than seeing somebody's prairs on facebook.

Look, I believe in God, I believe that God is good, but it is downright cheesy talking about it on facebook (unless it is in the course of a conversation).

The only thing worse than that is a coach after the superbowl saying "God was with us" as if the almighty himself gives a hoot about where the pigskin lands.

You want to give thanks, go to church.

Shameless

Today will mark the second time I have linked one of my blogs to Facebook.

I feel...dirty.

Makes me wonder how actors can watch themselves act, or rock stars watch themselves sing.

Isn't there something that says "I am whoring myself out for attention"? Do they mind that thought?

Guess I had better get used to it cause if I am ever to achieve my dreams I gotta learn to "pimp myself" out.